Don't try to play me out...

Cammy and I had a pretty good night last night. We had corn on the cob- a Classic Cammy Favorite dinner food. Jerry went to see V for Vendetta She’s still having nightmares – at least I think she is – she wakes up frantic and upset calling either me or her Daddy, but promptly goes back to sleep once she gets a little cuddle or a few strokes on her head and a hug. Last night I had to sing to her (how that could put her back to sleep I’ll never know), I always pray over her when she wakes up upset. We pray at night before bed time, she says a hearty “A-MEN!!” when we get done. Every night, when she gets so upset I worry that we moved her out of our room too soon.   Last night I found myself sitting on her floor with my hand on her tummy, her holding my finger just talking a little bit. I wonder if she feels my stress, and if I am contributing to her discomfort. I worry if we are making the right decisions for her..
Honestly folks, my stress levels are probably dangerously high, and I promised myself I wasn’t gonna do the whole shutting down thing I normally do when I get stress, I was gonna fight through it and resolve all the issues, I also need to learn to let Jerry handle what he can – not just what I can’t, if that makes any sense. I’ve got a tension headache, Jerry’s got a migraine, and Cammy well she’s cute as ever.

My Mom’s birthday is today – Happy Birthday Mommy! She’s thirty two today which means she was three when she had me. Go figure. She got her present which she loved, thankfully. And that means I’m one birthday down and a zillion to go. April is a busy month for giving birth. Here’s to hoping I can avoid it in the future.